I started to figure out the weakness I have. How people stared at me and their opinions. I decided to not care at first. But lately I realized that I'm getting change. Whether in physically or mentality, they slowly turned to things I haven't wanted at all.

Let's talk about the physical first. I found a lot of delicious food and I eat much from last year. As I recall, it was already school holidays on November. My mom have noticed of what happened. She also gave me advises to control myself for not addicted over the food. Who cares right? I'm a food lover so I can eat everything I want. Then, how regret I am to say something worst such like that when all of my school uniforms don't fit me in. I had to find the old and larger one to go to school. It sucks. I also have gained weights. I guess I'm overweight because I gained 6kg from 56kg. Yeah, it was 61kg and my height was only 151cm. Fat and short. Thank to God, I lost 1kg right now and I'm proud of it even just a small counted number.

Emotional problem. This is normal to me. But since I've worried about how my body looks. I get stress. I'm afraid to eat anything and shamed with other people who have skinny thighs, sexy curve and else. I've tried to start workout. But never satisfied with myself and can't be patient. So I gained weights again. Yesterday, I saw an instagram account of person who used to be a fat girl like me and we have same kind of problem. Her name is Ayuni. I stalked her feed and I absolutely adore on how she tranformed herself to be a skinny girl. She motivates me a lot and I'm currently using her tips to get fit.

Today, I'm planning to make a cardio workout. Fit and slim challenge started from now. And I have set myself to lose some weights in two or three months. Fighting!